If my life were a puzzle, and I a child, then perhaps my heart would be the picture.
I know the puzzle-maker; He is my Father. He alone knows the full picture; He has never shown me the box cover!
So here are some pieces of my puzzle in this ending of May and beginning of June…nothing grandiose…nothing pauperish…just my heart as I know it.
the nations – woo me; burden me.
the Word – is sooooo salty…it makes me thirst, then bids me drink.
His Spirit – is more and more dear.
His salvation – is my delight!
a bible study – deepens me.
school – though done for a season, wrestles with me.
my “job” – frustrates, delights, laughs, cries…all of these reactions are mine, on a weekly basis!
I was telling a friend that the best things about this year have been the internal workings of Christ in me.
I haven’t moved to the nations.
I have a steady job.
I go to a community college.
All is…the same? Blah.
Blah.
Blah.
Blah.
Oh, but my for my HEART.
I find it growing deeper in love with Him each day!
This is the life I’ve always dreamed of...
(Somehow, I just thought it would happen due to circumstances, surroundings, peoples…but I find these things can neither separate nor push me toward the love of Christ in and of themselves.)
Just Christ.
The simple beauty of the Gospel.
hE mAdE a WaY fOr Me
He is mine and I am His.
Unmerited grace. Undeserved mercy.
That’s my King…
my Lover…
my Friend.
Tonight is the first night I can think of in many months where I walked away from watching a movie I knew I would enjoy to spend time with the One who loves me.
There is a...newness...to this season.
All my "why's" are being wrapped up in Him - He is my answer.
As my pastor said this Sunday: The question is not "Does God love me" for He has already answered that question! The question is: Do I love Him?
Who knew what joy could be found in the answering?
For I find myself in one place dancing and laughing and crying in my room with Him, in love, only to find myself in another place where my love has failed, and I am burdened by my sin. In that place, He finds me...quiets me with His love...and makes me new.
I have never met anyone like this Man. I probably never will.
He is mine and I am His.
It is enough.
